Wednesday, December 31, 2008

shiny new year

Hello, all! I've been sitting around on the sofa in my pajamas, watching a "Twilight Zone" marathon and savoring a cup of coffee while I contemplate the passing of yet another year. I love the last day of the year. Gives me a chance to reflect on who I am, who I've become, who I want to be.

Overall, 2008 wasn't the best for me. It's been a stressful year filled with money problems, job hunts, and sadly, the destruction of my beloved car. But when I think about the big picture, it definitely could have been much worse.

While 2008 was nowhere near as kickass as 2007, it did have some good points. I still have a job that I love... this year has been rough, but I'm blessed to be part of such a wonderful community. In May, I found out I have a new addition to my family - Kyle's son Gabriel - who later became my godson. I got a sofa... lol... might not seem like a big deal, but it's SO much better than the futon. My brother got engaged in September, and I was asked to be in two weddings next fall (Doug and Jill, Becky and John). I had an interview with a very prominent school district, and I'm officially on their "list," which means I can be hired if there's an opening. Fingers crossed. And of course, I had some fun nights out with my friends. And lots of fondue!

And it was a big year for world events... the Olympics, Phils winning the World Series, the election of Barack Obama... a historical time to be alive.

Anyway, I'm hoping for good things in 2009. We'll see.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Christmas spirit... coming and going...

Today I upheld a fine family tradition... a trip to Peddler's Village with my parents! It was the perfect day for it - cold and clear. Our first stop was lunch at the Peddler's Pub. I had homemade vegetable soup (mmmm....) and a roast beef sandwich. Then, it was time to window shop! I didn't buy much this year, but we visited all my favorite places: the nut & candy store, the stationery store, the hat store, the Yankee candle shop. We skipped the bookstore (too depressing to go to a bookstore when I don't have money, lol) and the gingerbread house display (the line was WAY too long and no one felt like waiting). We stayed just long enough to see the lights come on when it got dark. A truly spectacular sight - I highly recommended it if you've never had the chance to see it. As we drove home, it started to flurry. The perfect end to the day! We also drove past Shady Brook Farms and caught a glimpse of their drive-through light display. (I really want to get there this year. If anyone's interested in getting a car together - and maybe a few thermoses of spiked hot cocoa - give me a call! It's $20 a carload, and I have a big car.)

When I got home, snow was still falling, and it was enough to cover the cars and the grass. Since I was in the mood for Christmasing, Sam and I decided to haul out the holly... I mean, the boxes of decorations from the garage. We were practically giddy with excitement. We lit a holly scented candle and put on a DVD of "A Christmas Carol." We started unpacking boxes and putting things in place. Then Sam asked which box had the lights. We rechecked the boxes, but couldn't find them. So we went back to the basement to see if we had missed a box. Nothing. I went up and asked our neighbor if maybe she took it up with her boxes by accident, and I found out that when she went down last weekend to get her decorations, she saw that 2 of her boxes were missing. She had to buy a whole bunch of new stuff to replace what was gone.

She told us she wrote a letter to our landlord, so Sam decided to give him a call. He apparently apologized and offered to reimburse us for what was stolen. I took a mental inventory and figured out what was in the missing box: lights for the tree and the window (at least 5 or 6 strands), the star for our tree, the new tree skirt that I bought last year (that matches our stockings), the electric candles for the window (which have been in my family since I was little), the garland of tinsel for our tree (at least 6 strands). As far as I can remember, that was all that was in there.

So now we have to go shopping tomorrow (with money we can't afford to spend right now) and buy things to replace what was stolen. Ugh. It really put a damper on the evening.

In retrospect, it could have been much worse. It could have been our tree, or our ornaments... but it's just so frustrating. And we have no way of knowing how the boxes went "missing." They're stored in a garage which is bolted shut from the outside and padlocked from the inside. Our neighbor had a friend who was storing things down there, so it's possible she took it. Our landlord's nephew has a key... maybe he took it. I just don't know why anyone would want our Christmas decorations.

So our fun-filled evening ended with much cursing and depressed sighs. And now I'm watching cheesy Hallmark channel Christmas movies and drinking my second rum and coke. Meh.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Gracias. Merci. Danke. Arigato. Obrigado. Xie xie.

This hasn't been a very good year for me... or so I'd like to think. It's really more along the lines of "things haven't been going my way this year." But today I want to force myself to step out of my bitter-box and really reflect on the good things I have in my life. So... I present to you my list of Things for Which I am Truly Thankful. In no particular order.

  1. Family. Including the dog. And the extended family (cousins, second cousins, godsons, etc). Maybe I should have listed extended family before dog... lol.
  2. Friends... the ones I see every week and the ones I don't get to see as often as I like. They all keep me sane.
  3. My job and my co-workers. The pay is bad and I often feel underappreciated, but the truth is... I don't think I'll ever find another "work family" like this one. I will truly miss them when I eventually leave.
  4. Weddings. I bitch about "always a bridesmaid, never a bride," but I'm thankful that I have friends who have found happiness. And also thankful that they want me to be a part of their happiness by standing with them on their wedding day. (But I'm not so thankful for the closet of bridesmaid gowns I'm collecting...)
  5. My students. I teach them... and they teach me. It's pretty much even. They make me smile when I'm having a bad day. They tell me I'm the "best teacher EVER," and I believe it coming from them. I may be single, but I get more hugs, hand-holdings, "I love you's", and random gifts than many of my coupled friends. Can't get that kind of love from an office job.
  6. My health. (No explanation necessary.)
  7. Booze. (No explanation necessary here, either.)
  8. The apartment. It's not so bad, compared to some other places. And the noisy neighbors are... well, they're tolerable. Most of the time. Even though their TV is currently so loud that I can hear every note of the Thanksgiving Day parade.
  9. My education. I'm lucky to have parents who impressed upon me the importance of learning. I've never once taken it for granted.
  10. My boobs. They're nice.
  11. The unique qualities that make me ME. And the fact that my friends and family love me because of (or in spite of) those qualities.
  12. My faith. It gets me through when nothing else can.

Thank you. Seriously. And go be thankful yourself. It feels pretty good.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

How I spent my Saturday...

Today I went dress shopping with Jill and the rest of her bridesmaids. After hitting four stores and then discussing the wedding plans over dinner, I decided to continue the theme at home. I was in the mood to sit on the couch in comfy pj's and watch cheesy movies. So I chose "The Wedding Date," followed by "Father of the Bride." And I'm giving myself a pedicure, just for the sheer hell of it.

It's all good.

(And while we're on the subject, I have an alarming number of movies about weddings. I didn't realize that until tonight... The Wedding Date, Father of the Bride, The Wedding Planner, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, Wedding Crashers, My Best Friend's Wedding... kinda scary, lol.)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Spooky.

Thoughts and Observations on Halloween 2008...

  • Any girl prancing around in a blond wig and glittery dress was presumably attempting to be Hannah Montana.
  • Boys' costumes haven't changed much in the past 5 years: Spiderman, Batman, or some version of the Scream mask with all black clothes.
  • Older boys don't bother with costumes. They wear jeans and a sweatshirt, carry a pillowcase (or open backpack) and show up on your doorstep for free handouts. Sometimes there's a mask, but it's usually on top of their head, rather than covering their face. I think this is so they can get better view of the plethora of "sexy" costumes their female counterparts are wearing.
  • Which brings me to this... There were more 12 year old girls with fishnets and mini-skirts than I cared to see.
  • While we're on that... Joe and I had an extensive phone conversation about those particular costume pieces (while I was giving out candy, no less... lol). We decided that pretty much anything can be added to fishnets and a miniskirt to make a "costume." For example: add wings, and you have a fairy. Big hoop earrings and a bandana? A pirate! Wear horns and carry a pitchfork... devil! A tail and ears? Bunny! Doesn't take much imagination to create a costume out of that. (I've neglected to mention that my costume from last year was exactly that... fishnets and a miniskirt. Paired with a red hooded cape and a basket to become Red Riding Hood. Sigh. I've become One of Them.) But seriously... little girls and fishnets are a big no-no. That's what leads to 17 year olds with toddlers.
  • Speaking of mommies... it seems to be perfectly acceptable for a mommy to parade around the neighborhood with her itsy-bitsy little bundle of joy (clad in a cutesy-wutesy little costume) and hold out a treat bag. I'm talking 5 month old babies here. Pre-teeth. Who do these moms think they're fooling? I know damn well who's eating that candy. (By the way, my mom's rule of thumb is that the babies get Dum-Dum lollipops.)
  • Someone needs to teach kids some Halloween etiquette. Let's start with this: "Trick or treat!" It's simple. Three words. Some kids just walked right up to me, thrust their bag in my face and waited. No eye contact, no smile. And certainly no "Thank you," after the candy was dropped in the bag. And kids? When someone says, "Happy Halloween," it wouldn't kill you to respond.
  • Another word about Halloween etiquette. When someone gives you a piece of candy, it's not polite to respond with, "Is that it?" or "Can I have the other kind instead?" And it's NEVER acceptable to try to score an extra piece of candy by lying and saying your brother is in the hospital.
  • A word about older trick-or-treaters in general: once you reach high school, STOP. Seriously. You're too old to dress up and collect candy from your neighbors. Go to Halloween parties instead. I actually had three or four adults (not in costume) come up to my door with treat bags. They were walking with a group of children, so I guess they thought they deserved candy, too.

It's no wonder I felt the need to hit the bar after the crowd died down. Screw the Halloween candy... I was ready for beer and wings!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

News :)

My brother got engaged last night!!!

Congrats, Doug and Jill!!!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

My afternoon, in haiku form.

Haiku 1
My feet are aching,
And my throat is all scratchy:
Back to School Syndrome.

Haiku 2
Goldfish crackers rock.
They're so freaking addictive.
Like crack in a box.

Haiku 3
Sitting, wasting time,
I could be making copies.
Nah - I'll just go home.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

requiescat in pace

By now you may have heard or read about the police officer who died in the line of duty last night. Sadly, Officer Nazario was a member of our school family. Her daughter is a recent graduate of our school, and her sister (who is also a police officer) has a daughter (who I taught four years ago) in our 5th grade.

According to the news, Officer Nazario and her partner were responding to an ongoing car chase between another police vehicle and a 16 year old unlicensed driver in a Cadillac Escalade. The driver was also allegedly drunk. He plowed into the police car on the passenger side at such a high speed that both officers had to be removed with the Jaws of Life. Officer Nazario was killed... her partner (who was driving) was injured.

The 16 year old was apparently was being chased by officers because they suspected the SUV was stolen. He fled from the officers because he had escaped custody in Family Court last year and "didn't want to go back to jail." He floored it (they estimate he was driving between 50-70 mph), ran several red lights and then hit the car that Officer Nazario was riding in. He fled the scene on foot and was caught by police. I just read that he's going to be tried as an adult.

It's always a terrible tragedy when an officer is killed in the line of duty, and this is no exception. But there are so many things about this particular case that make me angry.
  • The boy was only 16 and already had a record. How sad is it that by the age of 16, he had already done enough to get in trouble with the police?
  • If he was indeed drunk, how did he get access to alcohol? Was it stolen? Did someone buy it for him? Was it readily available to him at home?
  • He was driving a car without a license. How did he have access to a car? Who gave him the keys? Was it stolen? Or "borrowed" when some family member wasn't around?
  • He ran from the scene. Apparently he thought he was man enough to drink underage, man enough to drive an SUV without a license, man enough to get involved in a car chase with the police. But he's not man enough to own up to murder. When the shit finally hit the fan, he ran like a scared little boy. And maybe that's all he really was in the first place. Maybe all the things he did were just a way for him to get noticed.
  • And while we're on that subject... where the hell were this boy's parents? A 16 year old who has a record, who drinks, who drives recklessly without a license... how does it manage to get this bad without someone in his family noticing and doing something about it?

It's a terrible waste of a life. The city has lost another officer... a girl has lost her mother. Please pray for the family of Officer Nazario, especially for her daughter Jazmin. And pray also for the family of the murderer. They have a very different cross to bear this weekend.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Drowning.

My first week back at work went very well... until today. Some of you may remember when I blogged about the paycheck gap that we had to endure this year. If you don't, here's a summary: our salary is split into 26 pay periods a year. Our 26th pay fell on August 15th. Our first pay of the new year doesn't come until September, so we didn't get paid on August 29th. That meant three weeks between paychecks instead of two.

However, I mistakenly thought that our first paycheck of the new school year was scheduled for today. In all the confusion, I forgot that we're paid biweekly, so the first pay cycle of the new year ends NEXT Friday. So I actually had a FOUR week gap between paychecks. But because I thought I was getting paid today, I had budgeted everything based on today's pay.

When I found out that we're not getting paid until next week, I kind of lost it. I drove home in tears, in a panic about the bills that are due (or overdue) before that next pay comes. I've spent the past few months stretching my money, paying the minimum on bills, buying non-brand name products, using any coupon I could find, turning down opportunities to go to the bar, and transferring whatever money I could afford from my savings account. I literally have no money left to fall back on. I'm at rock bottom and it scares the shit out of me. I had to call my mother and ask to borrow money. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

This is not the life I wanted. I worked my ass off to get my degrees and my certifications so I can have the career I want. Despite all of that, I couldn't get hired by a decent school district, so I have to spend another year in the Catholic school... living paycheck to paycheck, cutting corners, making sacrifices. And now I have to take on a second job. It's just not fair. There are people who dropped out of college who get paid more than I do. I went to college so that I wouldn't have to work retail, so that I wouldn't have to work weekends and holidays.

I'm just so tired.

**Edited later**
I just re-read this blog and realized how bitchy I sound. I wanted to clarify, just for the record... I didn't mean to imply that I'm better than someone who didn't finish college or that I deserve more than they do or that working a retail job is bad. And I know I'm not the only one who has ever been in this position. I was just really upset when I wrote the blog. I threw a very public self-centered pity-party and didn't feel like being politically correct. Hope I didn't offend anyone.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Smoooooth.

I know I'm having money issues... and I know I should prioritize my expenditures. But I had to go to Target for some work stuff today and I picked up a pack of Schick Quattro replacement razor blades. I can't handle the nicks and cuts anymore. I need four blades. I need a pivoting head. I need moisturizing strips with aloe. I need a smooth shave, damnit!!!

Plus, I get paid on Friday. So I'll consider it a little gift for surviving three weeks between paychecks. Tee hee...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

The internet is fun!

Three cool links for you to enjoy...

I started posting on my teacher-blog again. Feel free to pop over and read about my job, if you're so inclined. http://dreeschalk.blogspot.com/

Where the hell is Matt? Do you care? Probably not, but this guy travels around the world to do a jig in as many countries as he can. Go watch the video of him dancing. It's a riot. http://www.wherethehellismatt.com/

Ever wondered what you would look like if you were a teenager in the 50s? The 70s? Now you can find out! Go yearbook yourself! http://yearbookyourself.com/

Have fun!

Monday, August 18, 2008

wishful thinking.

Things I plan to do once I have money. In no specific order.

  1. Get the oil changed in my car.
  2. Buy "Simpsons" seasons 4-7 on DVD.
  3. Get a bottle of Jagermeister... my freezer door is empty without it!
  4. Schedule an eye doctor appointment... and get new glasses.
  5. Finally see "The Dark Knight." But it will probably be out of theaters by then.
  6. Buy refill blades for my Schick Quattro razor. The cheap ass razor I bought in an attempt to save money has given me nothing but nicks and cuts. Damnit.
  7. Rebuild my savings account, which is rapidly depleting.
  8. Buy new clothes. I desperately need some!
  9. Save up for a REAL sofa. I need to get rid of the damn futon.
  10. Get a bunch of pics printed so I can work on some scrapbooks.

I'm sure there's more I can add... but this is good for now.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Some stuff.

Just a few random notes about things I've been up to... nothing special...

I've officially given up on the job hunt for this year. I sent one last application two weeks ago, and have yet to hear anything from the district. And it's that time of year for me... I usually head back into my classroom two weeks before school starts so I can set things up. This year I wanted to get an earlier start. Partly because I'm bored sitting at home, and partly because when I packed everything up in June, I sorted things into two groups: things that are mine, and things that belong to the school.

(Sidenote: It took me months to sort the books in my classroom. I can't even begin to estimate how many books are in that room. I had at least 5 milk crates full, 6 computer paper boxes full, and two bookshelves full. All of the milkcrates and 2 of the boxes are my personal books paid for with my money over the past 8 years.)

So anyway, I knew it would take me longer than usual to weed through all the piles and boxes this year. I went back a few days this week and got a lot of stuff done. I'm going back next week to finish up. Then hopefully I can spend my last week of "vacation" doing lesson plans and making copies for the first few days of school.

In other news, I made it through an entire summer without seeing the beach once. Damn gas prices. Oh well. Maybe next summer. On the plus (?) side, I think I've seen pretty much every episode of "Jon and Kate Plus 8" and "Full House." And I've been to the library twice. I read a TON of books this summer. Most of them were chick lit romance novels, not quality literature. That's my summer indulgence. Well, at least I got to read.

Last night I went to Mass with Tim and Michael (Feast of the Assumption). We went to a lovely church in Camden for a Latin Mass. The Mass was beautiful, as was the music, even though it's a little hard to follow in another language. But I've done that before... in addition to the Latin, I've heard Mass celebrated in Spanish (at the parish where I work), Ukrainian (at several different churches), French (in Montreal) and once in Polish. It's pretty cool to experience something so familiar in a different language. Tonight I'll be going to Mass again (to fulfill my Sunday obligation), but I'll be going to the Ukrainian church that my aunt and cousins belong to. Their Saturday night Mass is said in English, but it follows the Eastern rite, so the format is a little different from the Roman Catholic. Nothing like broadening my horizons.

I guess that's all for now. It's time to tackle my laundry and start cleaning my bedroom. Oh, joy...

Saturday, August 9, 2008

One world, one dream.

I just spent 4 1/2 hours watching the Olympic Opening Ceremony. It was pure bliss. I'm not an Olympic junkie - in fact, sometimes it gets on my nerves when I find out that a show I want to watch has been bumped by game coverage - but there's something special about an Olympic year. Especially the opening ceremony.

I won't bore you with the details of this year's ceremony in Beijing. If you watched it, you know how amazing it was. If you missed it... well, that's your loss. My favorite thing about the opening ceremonies is that they're always unique. By watching, I learn a lot about the host nation and I get a feel for their fashion, tradition, culture and history. I love love LOVE the Parade of Nations. All the athletes marching through the stadium in matching outfits... some in traditional costume, others in trendy suits with kicky berets (ahem, Team America). Everyone is giddy, snapping pics, waving. I just love the energy. And then... the lighting of the torch. It's all good. It's all very, very good.

As far as the games go, I like watching some. This year, I'll probably try to catch gymnastics, swimming, diving, and maybe some basketball. And then I'll skip some of the other games (weight lifting, track, judo). I'm a big fan of watching the medal ceremony... the flags and the national anthems... the tears. I don't even care which country wins, lol.

I think, overall, what I like the most about the Olympics is the sense that all of the nations in the world can find one thing that they agree on. And they manage to put their weapons down and play nice for a few weeks (at least in the host country). Makes you wonder why they can't take that mentality and apply it to other things.

Anyway. That's all I have to say about that. Just felt like sharing with you. Feel free to share back... that's what the comments are for.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Project: organization.

I've decided to make a New Year resolution! No, I haven't gone off the deep end. I know it's August, not January. I'm thinking in teacher terms... a New School Year resolution! I figure, people make New Year resolutions because they want to improve something about they way they live. So I'm going to make some New School Year resolutions to improve the way I teach.

'Tis the season... stores are a-buzz about Back-to-School sales, and teacher websites are filled with Back-to-School tips, tricks and ideas. When it gets to this point in the summer, I start getting antsy about going back to work. I start to miss the kids and the classroom and the routine. To help pass the time, I go through pictures from previous years to see how I set up my room and what kind of projects I did on the first day of school. Then I hit some teacher websites for new ideas. I pull up my file of old ideas and add the new ones to the list. And finally, I go through the revised list and color-code it according to my needs (by subject, by season, etc). Yes, I AM a dork. I freely admit it.

Now, onto the resolutions.

  • Stay organized!
  • Keep desk clean. It should NOT be piled with papers, projects and miscellaneous odds and ends that don't have a home. I want to be one of those teachers that has a plant and framed family photos on her desk.
  • Keep a binder... possibly two. One for parent-teacher communications, one for schedules, lists, calendars, etc. Keeping everything in binders means less loose papers on my desk.
  • Declutter!!! I don't need to save everything! Sort things into piles: throw away, give away, put away.
  • Plan ahead. (This will be the hardest...) Lessons, assessments, projects. It will make my life easier in the long run.
  • Don't volunteer for as many things as I have in years past. I don't get paid overtime for these things, and it takes away from my "me-time."
  • Don't feel bad about not volunteering for everything. When you add up all the things I've done in the past 7 years, I think I'm entitled to some time off.

There are a few others, but they're more specific and are probably boring to those of you who don't teach. Anyway, it's just a jumping off point for me. I think I can do it.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

still relevant today :)

I was looking at my old teacher blog tonight (because I'm home alone and BORED!) and I found a post from August of 2006. I thought I'd share it with you, because it still holds true, two years later:

Misunderstood (8/14/06)

Today is the first day in a long time that I haven't had camp or class to go to. A totally free day with no obligations. I had a conversation with a friend, who works an office job. When I told him I had nothing to do today, he said, "Must be nice... I wish I had your job!"

"Oh really?" I replied. "You know, it's not so easy being a teacher. I do a hell of a lot of work."

"Like what?" he challenged. Surely he did not know the Pandora's Box he had opened with that seemingly innocent question. Wow. Where to begin? The rest of the conversation went something like this...

"On a regular work day, I get to school at 7:30 AM and don't leave until 5 PM (even though we're only required to stay until 3:30). On special nights, like Back to School Night, Parent Teacher Conferences, or Open House, I stay at work until 8 PM. On those days, I don't eat a single meal at home. Three Saturdays during the school year, I drive back to work for our Family Unity Mass. Because I'm expected to keep up with education credits, I've been taking grad school classes during the school year for the past two years, which means I'm in school for a three-hour lecture one or two nights a week after a full day of teaching. On the nights that I am home, I'm doing grades or planning lessons or making something for my classroom. In the summer, I work summer camp to make extra money (because Lord knows I don't make enough) and I cram in as many grad school classes as I possibly can, so that I won't have to take as many during the school year. Two weeks before school starts, I go back to my classroom to start setting up for the new school year. I don't get paid overtime.

"Now, that might not seem like a lot of work to you. But consider this: I don't sit at my desk all day. In fact, I couldn't sit at my desk even if I wanted to, because it's usually piled high with papers and books and projects and notes that need my attention. I spend my day teaching an average of 20 six- and seven-year-old children who, combined, have more energy than my morning mug of coffee provides me. Speaking of which, teachers don't have 'coffee breaks,' or even 'bathroom breaks.' I use the restroom when and if I have a break... after I make my copies, call some parents, meet with the teacher I'm mentoring, or whatever other errands I need to run.

"And before you tell me that teaching six-year-olds sounds like fun, let me assure you that I have seen and heard things that you would never see or hear in an office building. Things that my college professors never taught me. Being a teacher doesn't mean my job is limited to teaching. I'm a mediator, a cheerleader, a nurse, a secretary, a banker, a story-teller, a singer, an actress, a psychologist, a mind-reader, a janitor, an exterminator, a chef, a comedian, a librarian, an artist, an author, an editor, a lawyer, a mother, a hair-dresser, a catechist, a trip-planner, a magician, a puppeteer, a scientist, a judge... the list goes on. And if you think I'm exaggerating about these extra duties, I could tell you stories about the bodily functions I've had to deal with in my room... vomit, blood, snot, tears, spit, pee, poop... all cleaned up without so much as flinching (or puking myself), and while keeping a classroom full of children engaged in another activity.

"It's my job to take non-readers and turn them into readers... and hopefully, into book-lovers. To take children who can only write their names and transform them into authors. To get them to understand how to tell time, count money, read a graph, add two-digit numbers, estimate, and skip count. To teach them how to get along, respect others, treat people fairly, walk away from fights, believe in themselves. I'm personally responsible for the educational development of all twenty children. Just me. So it stands to reason that I feel personally responsible for the students that I cannot reach.

"I've done the math. I know what I make compared to those in other professions. If you took the going rate for baby-sitters and multiplied it by 20 children, 7 hours a day, 5 days a week, it'd be more money than I'd make in five years.

"I LOVE my job. I can't imagine being anywhere else, doing anything else. I just wish people would stop making assumptions about our profession.

"So... do you still want my job?"

Friday, August 1, 2008

One day at a time.

I thought I'd post with some updates, since I was pretty upset in my last blog. First and foremost THANK YOU to everyone who offered support, advice and money-saving tips. It was very much appreciated and helped remind me that I'm not the only one who's had to deal with this.

To that end... since my last post, I've been breathing a lot easier. I haven't experienced the headaches or anything in a few days, so that's a good sign. I made a few changes in the way I handle my stress, in the hopes of preventing any more panic attacks. Every night I take some "me-time" that doesn't involve thinking about money. It could be reading, watching TV, doing a survey, whatever. I also started making lists. I'm a list-maker by nature anyway. They make me feel more organized, which makes me feel like I'm in control, even if I'm not. And when I feel like I'm getting overwhelmed, I stop what I'm doing and take deep breaths. It works wonders.


My money situation hasn't improved drastically since last we spoke... but I'm dealing with it. I've come to terms with the fact that I'll be spending another year in the Catholic school (unless a miracle happens in the next two weeks), and I'm trying to get excited about the new school year. I'm getting into "teacher mode"... thinking about activities and projects for my new class. That keeps me occupied. Also, I've applied for some part-time work. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I could use the extra money.

Anyway, I'm gonna keep this on the short side for tonight. Again, thanks for talking me out of my tree. I needed it.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Harder and harder to breathe.

I need some help from anyone who's in a position to offer advice. Even if you're not in a position to offer advice. I don't care. I just need someone to tell me anything that might calm me down a little.

I'm having money issues. I know some (or all) of you have been in the same boat before. My current problem is that I'm trying to live off of my Catholic school salary, which isn't stretching as far as it used to. When I moved out of my parents' house last year, I still had a decent amount of money in my checking account and a good amount put away in savings, and I was pretty comfortable. But over time, my checking account depleted... and I had to dip into my savings to make ends meet.

You know the whole story about the job hunt... I've been blogging about it for ages. I haven't had any luck finding a new job for next school year, so I'm back in the Catholic school again. Not the end of the world... I still have a job, etc etc. But I was pretty convinced that I'd have something by now. And every time someone asks about it, they say the same thing: "Oh, I thought for sure you'd have a new job by now." I heard that twice last weekend and it really got to me. I think that's what set off the panic. I was sure that my degrees and my experience would be enough to get me hired at some fabulous (and better paying) school district. What I didn't think about was the thousands of college grads who would also be looking for work this summer. A teacher's salary is determined by education and experience. It costs less to hire a teacher fresh out of college than it does to hire me.

On top of that, our last paycheck for this past school year will come on August 15, and our first check for the new school year will be on September 5, which means I have to go 3 weeks between checks instead of 2. It doesn't sound like a huge deal, but when you live paycheck to paycheck, it can be. I'm really hoping I don't have anything major to pay for in that time.

So the failed job hunt and the pay gap have me pretty upset. On top of that, I have bills due and our fridge is practically empty. I don't have enough money for social events or extras. Everytime I think about it, my chest tightens, my throat constricts, and my head throbs. (Is that a panic attack? If it is, I've been having them for the past few days.)

Like I said, I know I'm not the only one who's been in this boat. And I'm sure there are people who have been worse off than I have. But this is the worst I've ever been and it's freaking me out.

So here's where the advice comes in. I need to know if anyone has any tricks for saving money, stretching paychecks, cutting corners or anything along those lines. (I'm already looking for a second job.) And I desperately need some advice on how to stay calm. I can't deal with the panic.

Thanks in advance. I hate sounding dramatic and needy... and I hate airing my money issues here on myspace. But I just don't know what else to do.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

updates...

Well, friends... it's mid-July. Normally, this is the time of year when I start getting back-to-school fever. Not because I miss work or anything... or course not. Not even a little bit. (Well, maybe just a smidge.) But mostly because this is the time of year when all the stores start advertising back-to-school sales, and I get the urge to stock up on goodies for my classroom. But this year is a little different. I have no idea where I'll be in September.

As most (or all) of you know, I've been job hunting for awhile. Since last summer, to be exact, but my trip to Australia got in the way of that. Anyway, I started updating my paperwork again this past February and by April I was sending out resumes and application packets. (Applying for a teaching job is like applying to college... I
blogged about it awhile back if you're interested. Which you're probably not, unless you're a teacher. In which case, you'd already know the process, so forget it, lol.)

Since I have no summer job, my mornings consist of searching 4 job-finder websites and 21 local school district websites for available positions. Between April and now, I have sent resumes/application packets to 8 different schools/districts. Out of those 8, I've heard from 2 districts. I had an interview with the one school district last week (which went well), and I got a form postcard from another school district (no positions now, but they hold my resume for a year).

I'm starting to get worried. I'm well qualified, I have great experience, and all my paperwork is in order. So why haven't I heard back from other schools? Is something wrong with my resume? Sigh.

On the plus side, I still have a job to fall back on. It wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. I have to be back in my classroom in mid-August to start setting up, so if I don't get another job offer before then, I'll have to give up on the job hunt for this year.

Keep some fingers and toes crossed for me.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Mnohaya Lita!

Yesterday was the christening of my godson's son. For the record, my godson Kyle is actually my cousin's son... which I think makes him my first cousin once removed. Which would make his son Gabriel... ummm... I have no idea. First cousin twice removed, I think. Complicated. Anyway, the christening was held at St. Mary's Ukrainian Church... no matter what Kyle's faults, at least the boy decided to baptize his son in the Ukrainian church. He was well trained, lol.

The christening was scheduled for 11 AM (which is more like 11:30 AM, Ukrainian time). When I got out of the shower at 10 AM, I saw that I had 3 missed calls, all from Kyle. I called him back immediately.

"What's up?" I said.

"Well... I'm in a bit of trouble," he replied.

Yeah, what else is new? "Okay, what do you need?" I asked.

He hesitated. "A godmother."

Yes, you read that right. The godmother that Kyle and Natalie had chosen for baby Gabriel called at 9:30 the morning of the christening and BACKED OUT. She didn't want to stand in front of people. She didn't think she was mature enough. (I got news for you, kiddo... no one involved is mature enough...) She asked Natalie (the baby's mother) if someone else could stand up and hold the baby for her... and Natalie informed her that it doesn't quite work that way.

So Kyle called in a favor... and of course, I accepted. It's always an honor to be chosen as a godparent. Even if I wasn't the first choice. I really don't mind that I wasn't their first choice... they're young, they have friends... and I'm already a godmother. But in all honesty, anyone who backs out of being a godparent less than two hours before the ceremony probably wouldn't be a very good godparent. So maybe it worked out for the best. Like my aunt said, God works in mysterious ways.

If any of you have ever been to a Ukrainian mass, you know how LONG it is. (And anyone who's been to St. Mary's... Sam, Tim, Miguel... you know how much their priest loves to talk.) A normal mass is about an hour and a half. Add the Baptism, Confirmation and reception of First Communion, and we're looking at a two hour ordeal.

(Sidenote, for those not familiar with the Ukrainian rite: in our tradition, a child is baptized and confirmed at the same time... and as of a few years ago, they also receive their First Communion the same day. Communion in the Ukrainian Church is a cube of bread soaked in wine... not the dry host that you receive in the Roman Catholic Church. So the baby gets the wine until he's old enough to have the bread.)

The ceremony started in the back of the church with baby Gabriel dressed in a onesie and wrapped in a red cloth. During this part, the parents and godparents renewed their baptismal vows. Then we proceed to the front of the church for an anointment of healing, which is followed by the actual baptism. Gabriel's onesie was removed and he was placed in the baptismal font, where water was poured over him. He was wrapped in a white cloth and handed back to his mother.

At this point, Natalie and I got to take Gabe back to the crying room to change him into his cute little christening suit (and... darn the luck... we missed Father's homily during that time). Once we returned, the ceremony continued. Now Gabe was wrapped in the white cloth again for his chrismation (which is when he was anointed with chrism... his confirmation). Then we were FINALLY allowed to return to our pew for the rest of the mass.

At communion time, Kyle took Gabriel up to receive the his First Communion. According to Kyle, Gabe seemed to enjoy the wine... typical Silva, lol. The mass continued... and then finally, blessedly... it was over, and everyone sang "Mnohaya Lita," which is a blessing for the baby, translating to, "God grant him many happy years." And then it was really over. Except for the taking of pictures. SIGH. And THEN it was over. (!)

Then we did what every good Ukrainian family does after a ceremony... we ate. And it was good. (Mmmm... kielbasa... )

So now I have two godsons. My godson and my godson's son. Crazy stuff, huh? And isn't the baby a cutie???

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I’m wide awake, it’s morning...

I'm pretty sure that's the name of a song. Or an album. Not sure. Either way, I actually am wide awake right now. I've been up since 8 AM. Of course, the reason I woke up so early hasn't arrived yet. We're having kitchen leaks again, right above the sink. When I woke up yesterday morning, the entire counter was soaked and water was dripping onto the floor. Last night the landlord's nephew came over to check it out and he thinks there's a cracked pipe somewhere. He said the landlord would be over today between 8 and 9 AM. It's now after 10 AM, and no sign of him. Surprise, surprise.

So let me tell you about my summer. One of my pet peeves is when people find out I'm a teacher and they say, "Oh, it must be so great to have your summers off!" Let me assure you, dear reader, it is NOT all it's cracked up to be. Once I'm off of my normal schedule, I get summer insomnia. I don't do anything all day, so I'm not tired at night. As a result, I'm up til around 2 or 3 AM and then sleep until 10 AM. I wake up, eat breakfast, watch TV, read, check email. Lather, rinse, repeat. I've never been so bored.

I tried looking for a part-time retail job, but didn't have much luck. My mother told me to try the mall... but... sigh... I'm 30. I just can't go work in the mall. The whole reason I went to college is so I wouldn't have to work in the mall anymore. (Sorry if I've offended anyone who DOES work in the mall... I did it for years, and it's just not for me.)

I've also been spending about an hour a day looking for a new teaching job. I have several application packets out there... and currently one interview scheduled... but otherwise, no luck. I do a daily search on careerbuilder, craigslist, monster and PAREAP (employment website for teachers in PA). I bookmarked websites for every school district in the area and I check those every few days to see if any new job postings are up. And once a week I check the Inquirer. It's frustrating.

Anyway... can you believe it's July already? This time last year I was in Australia. Actually, at this exact time, I was in the air, somewhere over Hawaii. I wish I had the money to travel again this year... but it is what it is. It's probably for the best, though. If I went away, I wouldn't be able to job hunt. And if I get a new job that pays more, then I can plan a decent trip. Somewhere out of the country. I miss flying. (This from the girl who used to get nightmares two months before an hour long flight to Orlando.)

(It's 10:30 AM... landlord just got here. He always has a way of making these kitchen leaks sound like they're our fault. "I don't understand why it does this. I've never had this many complaints before." Fucker. The water is coming from our ceiling, everytime the upstairs neighbors wash their dishes or run their garbage disposal. By what stretch of the imagination is that our fault?)

The holiday weekend is fast approaching. So where are all the cookouts? The BBQs? The backyard pool parties? I feel like things have been strangely quiet this summer. But I actually do have some weekend plans. I'll most likely be at my parents' house on Saturday to use the pool. And Sunday is my godson's son's christening. I'm sure that'll be quite the event. Whenever a new Silva is welcomed into the world, it's always a cause for celebration. Or is it alarm? (Joe, maybe you know the answer to this... lol...) Anyway, I'm sure there will be plenty of pictures of the precious bundle of joy next week.

Well... that's all from my end. Time to go check email, watch TV, read and look for a job. Ugh.

(PS - I just looked it up. "I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning," is an album by Bright Eyes.)

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Girls’ Night Out... just like the good old days :)

Last night I met up with my friends Renee and Heather to hang out in the city. Like I said in my last blog, I used to work at a charter school with these two girls. You know what happens when three teachers have access to alcohol? Let the good times roll, lol.

We met at Renee's house and then walked to a cute little corner pub called Ten Stone. We started the evening by chatting and catching up on what's been going on since we last hung out. We sat at the bar next to a very random guy... young, early 30s... who spent his night reading a book, writing in his journal and reading Far Side comics. Oh, and snickering at our conversation. I think the books were a cover. He was definitely more interested in what we had to say. We also grabbed dinner there, and since mine was late coming out, the bartender took one of my drinks off the tab. Sweet! The bar was really fun and neighborhoody... I'd definitely go back again. Hell, the jukebox played Weezer! And Billy Ocean!! And GENESIS!!!

Onward and upward. We walked into the Rittenhouse area and found a bar called Vanga. It's next door to Bar Noir, which we used to frequent back in the day. There used to be a really hot bartender there named Seth. Turns out he's working at Vanga now, so we tracked him down. We haven't seen him in about 4 years... so when we sat down at the bar in front of him he said, "Hoooly shit." Blast from the past, lol. We had several very expensive drinks there (nothing in Center City is cheap), flirted with Seth , and then took a cab to The Piano Bar at 20th and Arch.

The Piano Bar was an excellent way to end the evening. We had one last drink and sang along to all sorts of fun songs. (Sadly, the piano man did NOT know "I Touch Myself." Sigh.) I have plans to go back again soon.

Anyway, it was an awesome night. We didn't wind up going dancing, which was our original plan, but we managed to have a very well-rounded bar tour... from comfortable neighborhood pub to upscale, trendy club to hole-in-the-wall piano bar.

We drank, we laughed, we drunk texted. It was all good.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

A story

Let me preface my story by saying that I tend of think of my life, and the people in it, in terms of chapters. Starting with nursery school, neighborhood friends, grade school and high school. Then college. By then, I had severed ties with most of my high school friends, with the exception of Rick and Erin, and I met a few new college friends in class and choir (other Erin, Erica and Regina). Somewhere between college #1 and college #2, Erin and I drifted apart, and I started hanging out with Inara, Angie and Rob... and then by the time I was in college #2, I added my roommates to that mix. In the summer, I worked at Dress Barn, where I found still more people to hang out with. After college, I lost touch with some of that group and got my first real job teaching at a charter school. That's where I met Heather, Kara and Renee. By now, I was a "grown up," in that I had a car, a real job and I could legally drink in bars. I stayed at the charter school for a year, after which I got my current job at the Catholic school... where I met my good friend Bridezilla and later, Amy. And it was around that time that I reconnected with old high school friends, plus a few extra faces (Miguel, Heather, Joe) with more soon to follow (Dooner, John).

It amazes me how some things can come full circle. People that I thought I'd never talk to again now have prominent roles in my life, such as drinking buddy, roommate, or best friend (again... Erin and I picked up pretty much where we left off). And myspace has put me back in touch with Shelly (Dress Barn), Erin and Erica (college #1), Angela (college #2), Rick, Angie and many, many others.

Anyway, my story... other Heather called me today to see if I wanted to go out Saturday night. We got in touch with Renee, and she suggested dancing. That might sound innocent, but let me assure you that in the past, "going out dancing" consisted of copious amounts of alcohol and extremely late nights. Not that I'm complaining. We used to go into the city and pre-drink at Renee's apartment... then walk over to Bar Noir or the Irish Pub, depending on our mood. Some nights we cabbed it to Envy or Five Spot for a more clubby dance experience. We were regulars at a few bars... bartenders who knew us would have our beers opened before we could get from the front door to the bar. Once we had drinks, the dancing would start... hours of dancing. Our night would end after closing hours, hanging out with the bartenders or going to an after hours club. We'd end up at Wawa or a diner for breakfast somewhere in the wee hours of the morning. Then back to Renee's apartment to sleep... followed by MASSIVE hangovers. And we did that pretty much every weekend. Sometimes twice a weekend.

All good things must come to an end... and that's what eventually happened with us. We lost touch with Renee... Heather moved... you know how it goes. So even though Heather and I still kept in touch, that chapter of my life had pretty much closed. I got back in touch with Renee last year, only to find that she was pregnant and engaged! So now she's a proud mommy and wife, and hasn't been out drinking since before her daughter was born. Until now. Saturday night the three of us are going out dancing. It should make for an interesting night. I'll bring my camera.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

I’m melting...

Is it just me, or does anyone else HATE the weather right now? It's so disgustingly muggy and humid. Ugh. Bring back spring.

I spent my weekend doing a variety of random things... but had more fun than I expected to have. On Friday night, I chaperoned our 8th grade graduation dance. Afterwards, I got the urge to go out. It was a hot night, and a cold beer sounded perfect. So I cranked up my dance music on the drive home and started texting people. Joe wound up coming over around 11:30 to hang out. I had no idea what we would end up doing (last time he came over, we were up til 3:30 drinking and watching "The Producers" on On Demand, lol)... but we had a very amusing evening/early morning excursion that included Pabst Blue Ribbon, 40s of Olde E and Colt 45, old school gangsta rap (Coolio, Snoop Dogg, Ice T, Kris Kross, Bell Biv Devoe, Sugar Hill Gang...), a trip to Joe's secret underground lair (filled with union workers and their chicks, lol), followed by a drive up and down Torresdale Avenue at 4 AM playing several rounds of a game called, "Guess the Hooker." Good times, lol. I couldn't have planned it if I tried, but it was quite entertaining.

On Saturday morning, I was rudely awakened by my landlord working in the apartment upstairs. It was about 9 AM and I didn't get in til around 5:30 AM... so you can imagine how thrilled I was to be awake. Ugh. At any rate, my landlord stopped down later to replace my window (which only opened from the top). He put in a new window AND an air conditioner! So now I can sleep comfortably this summer!!!

Then I headed to my parents' house to help them give my dog a bath. It's a three person job, trust me. By the time we were finished, I was a sweaty mess... and covered in black dog hair. But Tasha looked fabulous!

Today was our 8th grade graduation. I put on a yellow polo shirt and white skirt with sandals in the hopes of staying relatively cool... but to no avail. There's no a/c in church. Just fans. And they didn't do much to keep us comfortable. After the ceremony, my friend Silvia and I decided to grab lunch. We thought about heading to Freddy & Tony's for some good Puerto Rican food, but then decided on a local bar & grill. I had my heart set on a Corona, but then we found out the cook wasn't there yet (wtf??), so we left. In the end we wound up buying some pinchos from two women who had a tent set up on the corner. We ate them in the car while we chatted. Classy lunch, huh?

Tomorrow my kids have the day off, and I get the whole day to work in my classroom. Usually that's a good thing, but it's supposed to be 99 degrees tomorrow. Two fans and six windows won't be enough to cool off that room. Joy. But on the plus side, there are only 5 days of work left until summer vacation! Yay! Then I can find a summer job and work on my time off! Yay! (That second "yay" was pure sarcasm, you know...)

Okay, friends. Off to bed in my cool, air conditioned room. Later, gators!

Sunday, June 1, 2008

silver linings

Today I had the distinct pleasure of hearing the Keystone State Boychoir sing in concert. For the fifty bazillionth time, lol. My godson Kyle has been in the choir for about 7 years, so I've seen quite a few performances over the years. And I toured with them as a chaperone for 3 weeks last summer, so I got to hear them sing every day... sometimes 2 or 3 times a day... rehearsals and performances and just-for-fun (once I was serenaded by one of the 15-year-olds at the Sydney Harbour Bridge... but that's another story for another time, lol).

Tonight's concert was just the graduates. Those are the older boys (high school) whose voices have already changed. The boys are talented, charismatic and incredibly sweet. Many of them know me through Kyle or from tour, and I always get a bunch of hugs and hellos after a concert.

Anyway... all of that has little to do with the rest of my blog. I just wanted to sing their praises once again, because I absolutely LOVE them and their singing. Well, maybe it does have something to do with the rest of my blog. Let's see if I can make it work, lol. One of the songs the boys sang tonight is a gospel tune called "I Need You to Survive." I've heard them sing it before, I think at their Christmas concert, and it moved me to tears. Not just the beautiful singing, but the lyrics.

Minor segue... but I promise I'll come back to the song in a bit. Did you ever feel like there's so much disrespect and violence and hate in the world that it's hard to see anything good in it? I get that way from time to time. Maybe it comes from teaching in a school where I see kids curse at their teachers and yell at their parents and blame everyone else for their problems. Or where parents make one excuse after another for their kids or can't be bothered to come to an Open House to see the work their kids have done. I don't know. But then something happens to remind me that there are still good people out there... there are still reasons to believe that the world isn't a total waste.

I know... I'm rambling, and I probably sound sappy and ridiculous. I'm going somewhere, I promise. So anyway, tonight when I heard that song, I had one of those moments when all is right with the world. And then after the concert when boys who haven't seen me in months came over to hug me and say how glad they are to see me and thank me for coming to their show... well, it just reminded me that not all teenagers are rude and mouthy and apathetic. I just felt like sharing that with you, in case you were having one of those days when it seems like the world is filled with assholes.


Here's a video of the song, followed by the lyrics, in case you need a boost today. (And don't avoid it because it's gospel music... there's something extremely powerful about gospel, and it's worth a listen from time to time.)




I Need You To Survive (Hezekiah Walker)

I need you, you need me;
We're all a part of God's body.
Stand with me, agree with me;
We're all a part of God's body.

It is His will that every need be supplied;
You are important to me,
I need you to survive.
You are important to me,
I need you to survive.

I pray for you, you pray for me;
I love you, I need you to survive.
I won't harm you with words from my mouth;
I love you, I need you to survive.

It is His will that every need be supplied;
You are important to me,
I need you to survive.
You are important to me,
I need you to survive.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Molding young minds = Priceless

I'm currently job hunting, and clearly it's been far too long since I've done it. Gone are the days of sending a resume and cover letter. Most school districts now require the following items to be sent in an "application packet" in order for you to even be considered for hire:

♦ Resume/cover letter
♦ PA Standard Teaching Application (5 pages, plus an essay)
♦ Letters of recommendation (3)
♦ Medical form (including a recent TB test)
♦ College transcripts = $13 ($5 for ungrad college #1, $5 for undergrad college #2, $3 for grad school)
♦ Criminal Record Background Check = $10
♦ Child Abuse Clearance = $10
♦ FBI Fingerprinting = $40
♦ Copy of PA Teaching Certification*

A few days ago, someone pointed out that he got into the military with less paperwork. And I don't think he was exaggerating. So basically, it's easier to get a government issued rifle than it is to get a job as a teacher. Lovely.

The entire application packet is about 20 pages. Which means I have to get some big mailing envelopes and pay extra for postage when I mail them. The cost of all these background checks and fees doesn't bother me as much as the inconvenience of putting together a packet for a school that may or may not contact me. But most districts have made it quite clear on their website that "incomplete packets will not be considered." I wonder what they do with all the packets they reject? I hope they recycle... Save the trees!!!

Anyway, I've already started sending letters of interest and resumes to some districts. Keep your fingers (and toes) crossed for me. I just can't afford to be a Catholic school teacher anymore.

*FYI, here's what it cost me to get certified as a teacher in PA (excluding tuition from 3 different colleges):

♦ Praxis test = $130 ($50 for registration, $80 for the test)... multiplied by 7 (I had to take 4 tests for Elementary Ed and 2 tests for Special Ed when I got certified in those areas in 2000. I had to take 1 test for Reading Specialist when I got certified in that area in 2008.)
♦ PA Teaching Certification = $80 ($40 when I applied for Elementary and Special in 2000... $40 for Reading Specialist, added this year.)

Sunday, May 11, 2008

deep breath...

It's been an interesting week. I got a phone call on Thursday afternoon from my 16 year-old godson... he told me that his ex-girlfriend gave birth an hour earlier. To his son.

This was the first I'd heard about this situation from him. He never told me she was pregnant. So there wasn't much I could say to him after the fact. I told him that I'm hurt that he didn't tell me sooner. And while I don't agree with the decisions he made, I won't lecture him, because I'm not his mother. I told him I admire his decision to be in the baby's life - he grew up without knowing his father, and I urged him to make sure that never happens to his son. And I told him I love him.

He asked me to come see the baby. I wasn't going to offer, but since he asked, I couldn't say no. So after work on Friday, I drove to the hospital to meet the baby. It was a surreal moment to walk into the room and see my godson holding his son. Babies having babies.

Before I left work, my friend told me to be strong. It's not the worst thing that's ever happened. I know that. And he's not the first kid to be in this situation. I know that, too. Then she told me that I'd probably fall in love the minute I laid eyes on the baby. And I did. Damn her for being right, lol. But that doesn't change my feelings on the situation.

It's just so hard for me to wrap my brain around it. I don't get why kids want to grow up so fast. Being a teacher, I'm privvy to a lot of information I'd rather not know. I've heard stories about our 6th, 7th and 8th graders who are having sex or smoking pot. They want to drink and smoke. The girls wear revealing clothes and talk about having boyfriends as early as 4th and 5th grade.

If they wanna grow up so fast, let them get a real taste for what it's like to be an adult. For one week, make them go to work and deal with deadlines, bosses and responsibilities. Let them pay some bills ... or pay for gas. Let them wake up 3 or 4 times in the middle of the night with a baby that won't stop crying. And then make them change the diapers and clean the spit-up. They don't know how good they have it right now.

Ugh. I went off on a tangent. I didn't mean to. I just needed to vent.

Monday, May 5, 2008

my four day weekend

As you can tell from the title, I had a four-day weekend. Before you get your panties in a twist about all my "time off," let me assure you that it was NOT relaxing whatsoever. FYI: The days off were for Ascension Thursday and a snow day we didn't use. And today, Monday, was a faculty meeting. So our kids had a five-day weekend. I guarantee they got more sleep than I did, lol.

Early Thursday morning, my 9 year-old cousin Kaitlyn came over for a "girls only day." I promised her one ages ago, and since we both had two days off, this weekend was perfect. We had a fun day: went grocery shopping, baked chocolate chip cookies from scratch, made pizza and salad for dinner, went to Mass, watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks" (two hours of my life I'll never get back...) and then she was in bed by 10 PM. Just in time for me to watch "Lost." Goooood stuff. I love that show!

I let Kait sleep in my bed and I took the futon. And she woke up at 7:45 on Friday morning. (I almost cried... lol. So much for sleeping in on my day off.) After breakfast, I painted her nails while we watched "High School Musical." By the time I dropped her off at her dad's house (after lunch), I was exhausted. And my allergies were killing me. But... no nap for me. I packed up some stuff and headed for my parents' house to do laundry.

Friday night was spent pricing stuff for a flea market and then packing it into my car. I spent the night at my parents' house because I had to wake up at 6 AM on Saturday morning. Sigh. Yet another early day. We worked the flea market from 7 AM until almost 1 PM... and then it was time to pack everything back up, drive back to my parents' place, unpack it all, and drive home. But... no rest for the weary! I had to eat lunch, iron clothes and make myself presentable for First Holy Communion at my work parish. Under other circumstances, I would have bailed to stay home and take a nap. However, I taught one of the CCD communion classes this year. And the 3rd graders who were receiving communion were once wee 1st graders in my classroom. Not to mention I was doing the second reading at Mass. Blah.

A quick word about First Communion. The parents were SO extremely disrespectful during the ceremony. Cell phones ringing, people going back and forth to the bathroom, people talking during Mass... and then during communion, parents started rushing to the front of the Church to take pictures. They were blocking the aisles, moving into the pews where they children had been sitting, pushing past people just so they could get a shot of their precious darling. We told the parents several times (first politely... and then not so politely) that they were not allowed to take pictures during Mass. They ignored us. They were told in Spanish. They ignored that, too. One parent even lied and said he wanted to get past so he could go receive communion. Instead of getting in line, he moved the the side, took a picture, and then went back to his seat. Lying?! In Church?!?? UGH. Other than that, the Mass was beautiful. The boys were immaculate in their white suits and ties, and the girls were adorable in lacy white dresses, hair freshly styled and adorned with pearl-studded veils. So sweet!

Anyway... I got home just in time for the MOST KICKASS FLYERS GAME EVER! Can you tell I'm excited? I don't think I breathed during the entire third period. It was amazing hockey. I can't wait for the next round against the Penguins. Should be very entertaining.

Then came Sunday... glorious Sunday! I slept late, lounged around the apartment for most of the day, and did absolutely nothing for hours on end. (Of course, I paid for it later. I spent my most of my night rushing to finish a presentation for today's faculty meeting.)

Yeah, so there's no real reason for this blog. Just felt like I haven't updated in awhile. That's all for now!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

fed up

I love my job. I really do. I rarely complain about the little things that piss me off, because the good usually outweighs the bad. But tonight it just went too far.

Our school has been holding a Family Reading Night once a month since February. It came about because a parent requested that we have "fun things" for the parents and kids to do together. (It should be noted that this particular parent hasn't shown up for any of the three Family Reading Nights we've hosted. Nor the spaghetti dinner we held for Catholic School's Week. Nor the Beef and Beer we had last Saturday.)

We had a modest turn out for February's Family Reading Night - about ten students and their parents. March's Dr. Seuss themed night turned out about twenty kids and their parents. So hopes were high for April's installment. We planned to read books about insects by author/illustrator Eric Carle (of "The Very Hungry Caterpillar" fame) and follow it up by making creepy crawly snacks... ants on a log (cream cheese spread on a celery stick topped with raisins), dirt & worms (chocolate pudding and crushed Oreos with gummy worms) and so forth.

I hyped it up all week with my first graders. I put the event on our homework sheet and on our website. It was listed on our school calendar. The principal sent an invitation to all students in kindergarten to fourth grade. She bought ingredients for four different snacks and I spent last night typing up the recipes for the treats so the kids could make a "cookbook" after hearing the stories.

Two children showed up. Two.

You know how many teachers were there? Six. The principal, the reading specialist, the librarian, and the teachers from first, second and third grade.

But that's not even why I'm pissed. I actually had fun with the two girls who came. They were both in my class last year, and they were really excited about making the cookbook and the bug treats.

No, I'm pissed about something that one of the parents said to our second grade teacher. She said, "Did you ever consider having this on a weekend? The parents work all day and they're tired on weeknights." Amy replied, "We've been here since 7:30 this morning, and we haven't been home yet." What does this mother think we do all day? I spend 7 hours a day with 23 six-year-olds... I'm exhausted by 3 PM. THEN the mother said, "If you did this on a Saturday, you'd get a lot more parents." Oh really? Last weekend we had a Beef and Beer fundraiser... about 40 people came. Five of them were parents. The rest were faculty, and family and friends of faculty. We hold a Family Unity Mass three Saturdays a year (with food afterwards)... I think 2 families from my classroom came to the last one. We sold tickets for a Saturday night Philadelphia Soul game. About 10 families bought tickets. I'm not sure what else the school can do to encourage parent participation. It was so sad to see the teachers standing around the school hall tonight... tables set with ingredients for the snacks, books piled and ready to be read... and no kids.

So now I'm just fed up with the whole damn thing. I was so disgusted by the apathy on the part of the parents, and by their misconception of what our job entails, that I actually cried on the way home. It was partially out of frustration and disgust, and partially out of exhaustion.

Maybe I'm partially to blame. Maybe I volunteer too much. Every Thursday after school I teach CCD for an hour. So today I got to work at 7:30 AM, taught from 8:00-2:30, taught CCD from 3:30-4:30, grabbed a quick dinner at Wendy's with Amy (because there wasn't enough time for us to go home between CCD and Family Reading Night), and then started setting up for Family Reading Night at 6:00. When it was over, we stayed and helped clean up. We left work at 8:00, and I got home at 8:30. That's a 12 1/2 hour day. I ate all three meals in that building today. And I don't get paid overtime.

Ugh. Sorry for all the bitchy blogs lately. I'm just feeling really down about a lot of things. I need to spend some time with my friends... drinking, talking, laughing... something relaxing, something to cheer me up. Something that doesn't require money. Or children, lol.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

things about stuff... stuff about things...

Can you believe it’s April already? As of April 1st, I’ve been in the apartment and out of my parents’ house for 6 months. If I was still in high school, I’d be celebrating my six monthiversary. Lame... lol... That reminds me of an episode of "Will and Grace," when Jack was celebrating his two weekiversary with one of his random boy toys. Anyway, I’m not 16... thank God... so I’ll stop counting months.

Aside from the stuff I blogged about before (water heater, leaks, toilet clogs, noisy neighbors), the apartment is great. Our landlord is here now, replacing the rotting wood over our sink (got all moldy from the water that was leaking). He was supposed to come over last Saturday, but he didn’t. Nor did he call to say he wasn’t coming. Then this morning he showed up around 10:30 AM asking if it was a good time to work on the kitchen. I can’t complain. At least it’s getting done. He’s here with his cousin, and the two of them are talking to each other in another language (still haven’t figured out what it is). Kinda creeps me out. I wanna know what they’re saying.


So apparently April is the month of Many Birthdays. I have something planned every weekend. It’s kind of annoying, cuz I’d like one weekend where I can relax at home and NOT spend money. But I guess I can do that in May.

In other news... I’m job hunting again. The money situation is getting desperate. Without revealing how little I make now, let me just say that I am literally living paycheck to paycheck and it’s not fun. Fortunately, I’m pretty marketable as far as my degrees, certifications and experiences go... so I shouldn’t have too much trouble finding a job in a better paying district. Fingers crossed. I’m also looking for a summer job. Possibly one that doesn’t involve children. It will give me something to do and put a little extra cash in my pocket until I’m financially comfortable again. The thought of working in retail again nauseates me, but it’s probably the most convenient thing if I only want to do some part time work.

Well... I guess that’s all for now. I’m gonna go take a nap to see if I can get rid of this damn sinus headache before I have to go out tonight. Grrrr...

Saturday, March 29, 2008

The Fair Maidens’ Lament

Gather ye ’round as I tell the tale,
Of neighbors and noises,
Bed springs and toddlers,
A deliquent son now sprung from jail.

Gather ye quick, lest ye not be warned,
Of the peace and quiet that now is mourned.

For once there lived two maidens fair,
Who sought a living space to share.

An apartment was found, in a quiet ’hood,
The price was right, the size was good,

And all was well for quite a while,
They cooked and cleaned and furnished with style.

All was well, until the day
The neighbor’s grandkids came to stay.

Two young urchins, fond of games,
"No!" and "Stop That!" were their names.

From down below, it’s quite easy to hear,
Each whine and shriek doth pierce the ear.

The little girl wails and cries in woe,
In response, her grandmother screams out, "No!"

The boy makes a racket with toy and with ball,
"Stop that!" is grandmother’s shrill pleading call.

But alas, our tale has just begun,
For next we have... the neighbor’s son.

Released from prison quite recently,
Residing with mother indefinitely.

A man best described as "ghetto trash,"
Smoking out the window, flicking ash.

Resplendently garbed in his best wife beater,
His sexcapades heard through the vents of the heater.

Each moan, each sigh, each squeak, each gasp,
Each thump of the headboard his girlfriend doth grasp.

There seems no end to the fair maidens’ strife,
For they seek but to lead a most peaceful life.

So they grit their teeth and they roll their eyes,
Each time they hear the urchins’ cries.

They plug their ears and try to ignore
When grandmother yells at the urchins more.

And they raise the volume of their TV,
When the springs of the bed creak rhythmically.

Will the maidens ever find their peace?
Will the landlord extend the grandmother’s lease?

For now, the fair maidens must deal with their fate,
They’ve signed a year’s lease, so now it’s too late.

So they smile upon passing a neighbor in the hall...
And they keep their fridge stocked with some good alcohol.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Because I was really in the mood to deal with THIS.

We live in the apartment from hell. I just want to put that out there for anyone who feels like being sympathetic.

As most of you already know, if you’ve been following the saga since Sam and I moved into this apartment in October, we have already had to deal with the following things:

Water heater leak in the cellar... started as a drip (which is when Sam called our landlord) and progressed into a river (when he failed to show up to fix it) which resulted in no hot water one very brisk November morning. Cold showers are not fun. And the water heater had to be replaced.

Water leak in the kitchen. This one happened over our refrigerator, but it came from a faulty ice maker in our upstairs neighbor’s fridge. It was a slow leak that eventually built up enough water to force itself down our wall, under the paint. Made a very interesting looking bubble, until we touched it to see what it was. After a few days, the water dripped more constantly, causing all the paint in one area of the ceiling to disintegrate and fall off. The landlord came to "fix it," and it did stop... for a few weeks. When it started again, he sent his nephew to do something to stop it. It worked... but it lead to...

Water leak in the kitchen. This time over our sink. Turns out when the nephew turned off the ice maker, he did something else that caused another leak. This one dripped for about two months in various spots over the sink. The wood over the sink and over the window is now warped and damaged as a result, and the windowsill paint is bubbled and cracked and stained a weird brownish-rust color in some spots. But that has since stopped dripping, which is a relief. We were running out of Tupperware to catch the drips.

Then there’s the toilet. In my 29 years of living with my parents, I may have needed to use a plunger twice. Since we moved into this apartment, we got so much use out of our plunger that we eventually had to upgrade to a no-nonsense black rubber industrial strength plunger. (Which kinda sucks, because the old one matched the toilet brush.) About a month ago, the toilet backed up for seemingly no reason, and after an hour of plunging (no exaggeration), the water didn’t move. My father came and tried, to no avail. Our landlord was called, and his nephew came out with a plumbing snake... five minutes later, problem solved.

We have one washing machine in the basement that we have to share with our upstairs neighbor and her deliquent son (he’s another story for another time). So it’s not a good thing when that one washing machine is out of order. A few weeks ago, the basin next to the washing machine backed up so much that the water overflowed and spilled onto the floor. I had to take my laundry to my parents house to do, which is just a bit of an inconvenience. Eventually it drained on its own. When our landlord came out one weekend to check our water leak in the kitchen, he also checked the basin and said it was fine. Which it was, for about two weeks. But I just went down to check my laundry and found water all over the floor, a basin full of water, and my clothes still sitting in about 6 inches of water in the machine. I had to wring them by hand before putting them in the dryer (and they’ll probably take forever to dry... which means I’ll have to spend an extra dollar to run the dryer again). Now my shirt is wet and my hands are cold from the water and I can’t do any more laundry tonight. BOO.

Also, our kitchen sink has backed up twice while we were using the garbage disposal. That’s not a very big deal, but when you factor in the toilet and the wash basin, it might mean there’s a problem with the pipes somewhere.

I’m not much of a complainer. And when I do complain, it’s usually good-natured. But this is getting ridiculous. I’m at my breaking point. My stomach is upset and I need to eat something so I don’t feel more sick and all I wanted was a quiet evening of watching "Ghost Hunters" and folding laundry. GRRRRRR.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

I did it!

Okay, so I used the Sunday cheat... but I still gave up myspace for 40 days! In the beginning, it was definitely a hardship. I was SO tempted to sign on to see if I had any comments, invitations or messages. But as Lent went on, I began to miss myspace less and less. I still felt out of the loop, but the need to sign on wasn’t as pressing as it had been initially.

Anyway... Happy Easter, everyone! Or as we say in Ukrainian... Khrystos voskres! (Which means, "Christ is risen!") I spent the weekend at my parents’ house. I dyed Easter eggs and baked a rum cake... and then I helped my mother take two baskets of food to church to get blessed. I found out recently that not everyone does this, lol. It’s a Polish tradition... each food in the basket represents something special for Easter. Our baskets were filled with ham, salt, horseradish, kielbasa, babka (yeast bread with raisins... after it’s blessed, it’s called paska), dyed eggs, and a butter lamb (which we made using a lamb mold). Mmmm... yummy....

My Easter started early... with Mass, of course... and then a big breakfast with my parents (using some of the food we had gotten blessed yesterday). After that, I cleaned some stuff out of my old bedroom and then took a little catnap. Later, we had Easter dinner at my mom’s cousin’s house. It was a typical family dinner: loud and crowded. Doug and Kyle (my 16 year-old godson) brought their guitars, so there was some singing (something I sorely miss now that Doug and I aren’t living at home anymore). It was a fun time, but I was so glad to finally get back to the apartment. Peace and quiet... my own bed... pure bliss!

I had way too much caffeine tonight, so I’m trying to unwind by watching some TV and drinking a small amount of brandy (which is also keeping me toasty warm!). And soon... bedtime!

Hope everyone had a great day! Don’t eat too much Easter candy!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Religion lessons from the bar

Last night a bunch of us went out to celebrate Dooner's birthday (damn youngin', lol). We started with dinner at Great American and then headed to Knights' Tavern to see Chris' band play. It was there that Dooner shared his theory about Zombie Jesus. Apparently the whole "rising from the dead" thing sounds a little like "Night of the Living Dead" to him. Who knew? Rich then argued that Jesus couldn't be a zombie because when he rose from the dead, he went straight to heaven. At that point, I had to step in as the voice of authority (aka - Catholic school teacher) and correct both of them. Apparently Rich's years spent in Catholic school were all for naught... he'd completely forgotten that Jesus spent 40 days on Earth before ascending into heaven. Okay... I'll let that go. However, he also forgot that we always had the day off for Ascension Thursday. Not just a made up holiday, my friend. At any rate, we all had a good laugh over it.

Saint Patrick's Day is tomorrow! Sam and I spent all day in the kitchen whipping up all sorts of tasty Irish treats for a party we're going to. She made Afternoon Tea Scones, clotted cream, and strawberry jam (all from scratch!). I made Irish Potatoes, and I cut up a variety of green veggies to be enjoyed with spinach dip. I'm looking forward to eating some ham and cabbage with soda bread.

Beannachtaí na Féile Pádraig oraibh!

And may you be in heaven half an hour before the Devil knows you're dead!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

A reminder

On my fridge, there is a note... written in pencil, in the careful printing of a first grader: "Miss M, you are so pretty. From, Isaiah."

You know... in case I forget.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

updates

So... let's catch up. I miss you! It's been so long! I don't even know where to begin. Well, work is good. I have one problem, but it's with a parent, and it's an ongoing saga. I'm trying to get it taken care of, but unfortunately, most of the situation is out of my control. Ugh. Also, the kids are in desperate need of a snow day, and the Archdiocese completely dropped the ball. As I'm sure you've already heard, they decided to open schools on Friday when the rest of the tri-state area used their brains and stayed closed. And THEN... in an act of supreme genius... they decided (at 10 AM) to give us a noon dismissal. So it was a complete waste of a day.

As far as social life goes... I've been out and about. I celebrated Tim's 30th birthday twice: once at Moriarity's and once the following week at Tim's house, where we played board games well into the night. Last weekend, Karen came to Philly, so a bunch of us met up at Out of Wack Jack's, which turned out to be bad idea. It's gotten very clubby lately. After only about half an hour, we relocated to the Ashburner. That has become one of my favorite places to hang out. I never have a bad time there. Karen and Dooner wound up leaving not long after we got there, so I hung out with Rich, Heather and Joe until they kicked our sorry drunk asses out of the bar, lol. Good times, as always.

This past Friday, John hosted a Martha Stewart themed party, complete with delicious homemade food. When Sam and I first got there, there were about 10 people already there... and we were the ONLY girls. And the only straight people. Although Miguel tried to convince us that there were two straight men in the room. I drove myself crazy trying to figure out who they were... and failed miserably. I never did find out who they were. Or maybe I did, I don't remember. Doesn't matter, I met a bunch of great people and had a BLAST.

Yesterday I was in the mood for some company. I had beer left in the fridge and a ton of DVDs in the apartment. I figured it would be a cheap and fun way to spend the night. So I texted some people to see if anyone was free... but sadly, two people were busy and one never bothered to text me back. I wound up working on my scrapbook and watching the end of "Guys and Dolls" on PBS. Wooo-hoo.

I just discovered that BBC America is playing "Dancing with the Stars" from like two seasons ago. I get to watch Drew Lachey win all over again, yay! Right now, Michael Buble is performing. Dreamy! That man has one smooth voice. I wanna pour a glass of red wine and curl up on the couch (aka - futon) listening to Buble jazz it up. But sadly, I have work to do.

So I guess that brings us up to date. Until next time, dear friends.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

See you on the flip side...

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday, and as all good Catholics know, it is the beginning of the Church season of Lent. For those not in the know, Lent (which begins on Ash Wednesday and lasts until Easter Sunday... 40 days!!!) is a time of prayer, almsgiving and sacrifice. I have no problem with the first two... it's the sacrifice part that gives me a hard time.

Every year, I spend hours trying to figure out what to give up for Lent. But I've never been able to come up with anything that would be considered a real hardship. Chocolate and candy? I could take it or leave it. Coffee? I fill my travel mug once in the morning and sometimes I don't even finish that. TV? I don't watch anything regularly except for "Lost"... which would be a hardship, but everyone and their mother is going to be talking about it, and I'd find out what happened before I had a chance to watch it.

So I thought harder... What do I spend most of my free time doing? Well, aside from reading and listening to music, I spend most of my time on the computer. Specifically, on myspace. Therefore, I've decided to give up myspace for 40 days.

Yikes.

I've discussed the matter of Lent with my parents and with my co-workers, and several people have always held the belief that whatever you give up for Lent you are allowed to indulge in on Sundays. Has anyone else ever heard that? All the people I've asked who are my parents' age (late 50s) grew up following that trend. I don't know how it escaped me. Anyway... if that is true, then I might possibly pop in on a Sunday or two, but only to check for messages, comments or invitations. I will not be posting any blogs, completing any surveys, leaving any comments or uploading any new pics between tomorrow and Easter.

Wish me luck!